on loneliness

i feel better now that my roommate is back

it’s funny that way

i’m happy that i have her

why is your door always closed? i always feel unwelcome if that happens…

Clarissa is..

obviously a ripoff of the facebook status function

here are my statuses today that i felt but didn’t put on it…

….feeling lonely

….nursing a burn, a cut, an illness, a cramp….and a broken heart

…fuck you all

…glad that you are back

…I miss you so much

…wishing that I was back 2 years ago

playing the part

hurray, i got to play the part of the ever loyal and devoted good friend this week for kit.

why do i feel so annoyed then?

… …

i’m feeling lonely yet afraid of rejection.

i should just go home every week.

or be able to survive without eating.

eating by myself in the cafeteria depresses me.

eating

i think i am accidentally-on-purpose eating junk food that is dry…though i have no idea why. don’t i want to get better? i would hope so. but i want to snack and eat and that is what i have. and my throat is itching again, haha. time to eat more orange mandarin peels….perhaps i should see the doctor next week…

i’m going to eat ice cream now instead….

wtf

i fell asleep while studying again, on my chem book

this is so stupid

oh

oh, and i forgot to mention that kit brought belinda over (his girlfriend)

i’m not quote sure how to react to this to tell you the truth

-_-

this has been a crappy week

first i burnt my hand on monday when i stupidly tried to ride a bike with a cup of tazo tea from literatea. it is still healing, and is just a huge black brown mark on my hand

then i get my period. (which pretty much sucks no matter how you look at it)

then i get blood all over the place

then alex leaves for home so i feel lonely

then i accidentally ditched noel

i feel horrible and guilty and crappy and overally just shitty dammit

the one and only highlight of the day was talking to ilyas about my trip to london in spring 2009 =D

disappointment

i am disappointed in myself.

why must i procrastinate and push my body so?

i know that i shall soon collapse of exhaustion…how much more can i possibly take?

W.I.P.

me trying to learn how to cg