NEWS

I’ve recently got into the Japanese band NEWS.

NEWS stands for North, East, West and South- there’s actually one song that takes that into account (NEWS Nippon).

Um, yeah, I’m pretty into them xD

Members:

consisting of- the one who works at their own pace, the one with the poison tongue, the one who cares, the complete sadist, the one that always smiles, and the leader~

Yamapi ♥
Tegoshi
Massu
Koyama
Shige
Ryo

My take: Yamapi- hot; Tegoshi-cute; Massu-cute; Koyashige-funny; Ryo- UH. No opinion…

How I got into this band:

Read Lovely Complex manga > looked it up on wikipedia > found out that there was a movie and anime for it > watched movie > watched anime, loved it > noticed the ending songs > downloaded ost > looked up tegomass on wikipedia > watched pv for Kiss ~Kaerimichi no Love Story~ > thought: hm, those guys are pretty cute > looked up both on wikipedia > found out that they were in NEWS > decided NEWS was Jpop, and thus, not for me > refused to download NEWS songs > did music cleanup, found out I actually had Hoshi wo Mezashite on my computer > listened to it > decided that it was an ok song > watched pv on youtube > FELL IN LOVE with the song > stumbled upon NEWS dvd, Neverending Wonderful Story clips on youtube > laughed my ass off at “believe” and koyashige’s antics > fumbled with memorizing the member’s faces > looked them up on wikipedia, wiki.teppen > found out Yamapi was an actor too > watched Kurosagi > FELL IN LOVE > downloaded both albums > watched youtube some more > downloaded member solos from NEWS dvd > had Pumpkin stuck in head for ages > listened to music > loved Ai Nante > found lj with picspams > FELL IN LOVE > started downloading singles, but stopped > decided to watch the entire Neverending Wonderful Story dvd > downloaded whole discography

and somewhere in the midst of this, I fell in <3

星をめざして

一度死んで
また生き返る
そんな魔法を
かけられていた

目覚めたら
君がいて
光みちていた
ぼくは生まれ変わった

※みんないるかい
星をめざして
君に導かれ
歌いながら
ぼくは歩きだす
ふり返らないさ
傷だらけの
少年時代など※

ぼくは確かに
道に迷ってた
深い暗闇で
孤独に泣いていた

目覚めたら
君がいて
光みちていた
ぼくは生まれ変わった

みんないるかい
星をめざして
君に導かれ
歌いながら
ぼくは歩きだす
くり返さないさ
もう二度とは
同じ過ちを

愛の力の
大きさ貴さを
思い知ったよ

星をめざして
君に導かれ

(※くり返し)

行こう!
星をめざして
君に導かれ
ぼくは歩きだす

行こう!
星をめざして
歌いながら
ぼくは歩きだす

Rant

This is something I wrote during my winter break at home-

The first and foremost thing in my mind right now is pure, unadulterated anger. That and the fact that I want to leave this place as quickly as possible to go back to where I was. It’s a calmer, more surreal and tranquil place where nobody gets on your back about chores. It’s probably because I am spoiled, but I truly only enjoyed my first, what, 3 or 4 days at home. It’s because I get an overdose of home each and every week.

Quote

someone who can lie to themselves is lonely…and in pain

Consequences

Life is full of consequences- for things that you done, things you have learned, things you experienced and seen….and things that you have not.

It is with this mindset that I head into the first weekend of the new semester. It’s been a plain week, I suppose, but it seems as if I have lost all my academic drive. It’s like I feel no want, no desire to continue my studies in college. That’s not to say that I’m going to drop out or am going to fail all of my classes, but I hope this feeling will pass.

Breaking the rules, it seems, gives me no guilt.

Of this fact, how should I feel?

Tora-san

I’ve been feeling down today because of the news.

The guitarist of my favorite band, alice nine. , has been diagnosed with a condition that renders him unable to to play guitar, to the point that his whole left arm is numb…

I do hope that he gets better

[Dream]

There’s this dream that I had that was so vivid, so real.

Yet the only thing I remember about it is the word “Noire”

Funny thing is, I saw someone with this name in Shaiya today.

Yelling (again)

Last night was probably the time when my mother decided to vent all of her frustation at me. I’ll say that yelling and arguing happens pretty often in my family, due to the fact that both her and I have extremely short tempers. The main difference is that I tend to coop up the anger and bitching inside of him and write everything down, all with a calm exterior that only breaks down when the point she makes is entirely illogical and stupid. Her, on the other hand, seems to only vent anger through the use of words and speech. It doesn’t have to be fancy language that is subtle with meaning; it’s plain words that are like little daggers that fly swiftly towards anyone that happens to be in the room at that point in time, whether it’s the person she is angry at or not. I suppose my demeaning her without giving her due her is equally as bad, but no one that I know in real life is going to read this…or I highly doubt it anyways. Who really looks at the web address of the screen when they walk pass to go to the restroom anyways? It’s 1:30 in the afternoon and I am in AcaDec. Why am I here? Huh, I think it was I couldn’t stand to be in the house any longer. I don’t think the massive amoutn of yelling and repetition of the same points over and over are going to help anyone anyhow. It just gets annoying, and when things get annoying, people stop paying attention to them. The really weird thing is that she was yelling like crazy last night about how I was inconsiderate when I asked her for information to complete the FAFSA and CSS Profile during the time that she watched television. Sure, I know that I could have done it in the afternoon when she wasn’t busy, but she was kinda busy in the afternoon too. Plus, didn’t she say that not watching television doesn’t cause instant death to my dad when she yells at him about not doing stuff?

It’s also completely pointless to argue against her. It will be turned against you, no matter what you do. It may a valid point, it may be true, it may have lots of support…but she will ignore it and move on to another point and continue yelling. And thus, it continues.

After she yells at you for what you did wrong, she will yell at you about all the things that are wrong in the room that you are in that you might have been repsonsible for. She will also pull out all the things that you have done wrong for the past week or so and throw them back at you. What is easily resolved with one small argument becomes something that will last upon hours and hours

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I want to go back to USC

New Year

I should make new year resolutions…but I’m too lazy > <